Hello lovelies, long time no post. I am so sorry for my awkward silence on this blog, I know I need to put my act together and all and I promise you guys it will not always be like this, I am turning a new leaf and hopefully you guys stick around to make it happen…
So I have a new series on the blog which shows a different part of me to the world, where I get to share my ideas, my dreams, what I feel and what I am thinking..
I had a serious conversation with a friend of mine at work and that conversation is what lead to this post. What we spoke about really opened my eyes to a lot of things that I havent being open to.
So the conversation started like this. Please stick around
Friend: Hello J how is school and all
Me: School is fine, we are pushing it slowly
Friend: So J tell me do you party?
Me: No, never for once have I partied.
Friend: Who are you forming for, so if you don’t go to parties, how to you socialize with people?
Me: I am antisocial, I love my privacy, I just love to be alone, from lectures I head straight to my home, or church and that is how my life is.
Friend: wow! So if you don’t mingle with people, if you just keep to yourself how then do you influence people? If you lock yourself up at home and shy away from people how do you make an impact in their lives, its not about saying you are a blogger, that is not the real world, you need to face the real world,stop hiding and shying away from people because it doesn’t help in any way
Me: hmmm! I never thought of it that way…
You see prior to that conversation I have been living my life in closed doors, always on my own, always hiding from the spotlight. I didn’t want to be noticed and so I had to keep my distance as far as possible. I was living a lie and that didn’t help matters at all, I probably thought that was who I was but when I think about it I am not so sure who I am anymore. I am an agent of change and how on earth can I be an agent of change when I don’t socialize with people, when I lock myself up and stay away from making new friends, from meeting people.
My life in school is more like a sham. I know a lot of my course mates wonders the kind of person I am as I am just something else. I live in a world of my own and most times I don’t entertain visitors in my world because I see people as invaders. I am so invisible and I run away from anything that would bring out the best in me. I really don’t think this is this best way to live my life.
I have been trapped in my comfort zone for too long that it isn’t bringing me anymore comfort. I want to make people smile but how can that be possible when I don’t give people the chance to be themselves around me.
So guys I don’t know if there are people like me, who practically lock people out of their circle probably because you are scared of being hurt. We all need each other and running away from people would only limit you from obtaining your goal.
I want to make a lot of changes in my life, I want my appearance to radiate God’s beauty and not mine, I want to be a source of inspiration to a lot of girls out there, I want to influence people not just by preaching Christ but by living a live of Christ. When I think about how He influenced people with His gifts and talents I am amazed. He handles situations like a pro and He is never moved my what people say. He never hid his gifts rather he was always on the move going about His Father’s business, every where he went, he was always doing good, changing lives with his preaching and his charisma.
If Jesus Christ hid himself from the world I wonder what this world would look like, he never intended for us to keep hiding because he knows we are fire that needs to reach out to people whether we know them or not, whether we even like them.
A lamp lit up in a house cannot be hidden under the bed, it needs to be brought out so as to shine its light…
We are that light, we are that fire, we are the lamp and we must shine out light so bright so that our Father in heaven can be glorified
It is not all about you nor is it all about me but it all boils down to one key factor and that is the living God. We do this for Him and no one else…
Make a decision today to walk in His ever lasting light and be that change that you want in the world.
Thanks alot for sticking with me, you guys rock.
Till my next post. Adios
……Judith Truly Cares