This isn’t Goodbye

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Hello guys.. It’s been a while innit..

Well what can I say?

It would be very easy for me to say I have been so busy or that I have been distracted in one way or the other but it doesn’t change anything. The simple fact is that I have been missing in action which is all my fault and no one else.

 

I don’t know where to start from or what to say.

Isn’t it easy for one to express him or herself but find it really difficult to put all that feelings and emotions into writing. Well that is exactly how I feel and I only pray for God’s grace to keep me focused in what I have to say.

 

Sighs

 

This is going to be a long post so please guys stay with me till the end because I really have a lot to say.

 

I have been so down in every way you could think of and my enthusiasm seems to be lost. I have been struggling with a lot of things like my academics, spiritual life, emotional life etc and I feel so overwhelmed I just need a grasp of fresh air. I seem to have lost it all and I need to find my way back.

 

There have been a lot of family challenges but I believe God is greater than whatever the devil plans to do.

 

I feel so dry

 

I recently ended a relationship that I thought would last for a lifetime but oh boy was I wrong. I really didn’t see it coming or maybe I did but refused to admit it to myself. I ended up believing I could change things without compromising my faith but how did that work out. The devil sure knows how to feed us with lies that seem so good when you look at it from the surface but when you look closer the painful truth stares back at your face. I have been there and I don’t feel so happy and the truth is I feel like I have failed! Yet again

 

I keep asking God why this didn’t out. Why does my life have to be so complicated? Why can’t I just get this one thing right for once?

And so on and so forth

 

Hmmmmmmmmm

 

The problem is always me or well that is what the devil wants me to believe and I am so feed up..

 

A friend once said I make people happy but I go all hard on myself depriving myself of the happiness I deserve.

 

It all seemed like a match made in heaven but I knew deep down that it wasn’t what God wants for me. I even tried to bargain with God but being who He is, He wasn’t having any of that. The decision must be made no matter how difficult it would be but it must be done.

 

We tried to stay true to our faith and God kept us only to separate us for a reason none other than, it wasn’t just meant to be.

 

God’s word reminds me that he breaks off every branch in me that does not bear fruit, and he prunes every branch that does bear fruit, so that it will be clean and bear much fruit. John 15:1-2

 

And as children of light we must obey God because it is no longer us who lives but God who lives in us.

 

So I want to take time off the blog to be feed by his word like never before. And be nurtured in and through him alone, for what my heart needs is more of God and less of any man.

 

This blog belongs to God and my only desire is to bring glory to him by what I write here and that my life reflects how mighty and absolutely faithful he is to me.

 

I want to go back to the drawing board were it all started in the first place and I can only do that by removing every clutter in my life and handing it all to God.

 

A place of rest is what God has promised us and that is what my soul longs for.

 

To rest from every disappointed and heartache because there is so much bottled up in me that I try to hide and guide with everything within me. My friends would always complain about how secretive I am and I can only hope they would someday understand that it really isn’t about me.

There are a lot of toxins in my life that I need to let out before I can move ahead.

 

At this point I can’t go any further but to just rest under the wings of my Saviour who has assured me of place to rest for a while and after which I continue my journey.

 

So this isn’t goodbye but more like a coming soon till God deems fit for me to come back.

I can’t thank you all enough for your love and prayers which surpass anything the world could offer.

 

I leave you all in the peace of Christ and I hope when I return which is certain that I meet you all in one peace stilling standing firm in the faith you profess.

 

I am really trying so hard to fight back tears because it is going to be hard and the truth is I am scared of what could become of me and my dreams but then again I am reminded that this battle is not mine to fight but of the Lord.

He satisfies my hunger and thirst and all that I will ever need comes from Him and Him alone. He is my firm foundation in Him I can never be moved but will stand firm in His boundless love for me.

If I can’t make right with God now then there is just no me for He comes first in everything no matter how right it might seem.

He is writing my story and I am so sure it is going to be a pretty long one but one with a beautiful ending.

 

Just a few quotes before I leave. And I hope it makes sense to you as it does to my Spirit.

 

God is making beautiful diamonds out of me

 

If it doesn’t challenge you, it doesn’t change you.

 

God didn’t bring me this far to leave me.

 

Pray hardest when it’s hardest to pray.

 

This is my favourite…

 

1Peter 5:9-10

The God of grace, who called you to His eternal glory in Christ will Himself perfect, confirm, strengthen and establish you!!!

 

I don’t  know how to end this but be sure that I won’t stop writing so that I could share a lot with you when I reappear…

 

God bless you all and

This isn’t goodbye…but a coming back soon

 

God’s blessings

 

 

 

 

Poem: A Little More

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A LITTLE MORE…

THAT WAS ALL MY MIND KEPT SAYING

A LITTLE MORE AND YOU WILL BE OKAY

ALL YOUR HEART NEEDS IS A LITTLE MORE

AND ALL YOUR PROBLEMS WILL BE SOLVED

ALBRACADABRA…

IS THIS REAL?

IS MY STORY REAL OR A FRAGMENT OF WHAT IS TO COME?

MY IMAGINATIONS LIVES IN A WORLD OF ITS OWN

WHERE THERE ARE NO RULES

IT’S A FREE WORLD ISN’T IT?

WHERE MY DREAMS COME TRUE

WHERE FAIRY TALES FEELS SO REAL THAT I COULD TOUCH

LIMITLESS IN THINKING BUT LIMITED IN ACTION

IT’S ALL IN MY HEAD…

I FEEL DECEIVED BY MY VERY OWN THOUGHTS

BETRAYED BY THE WORDS THAT COMES FROM MY MOUTH

FOR I AM MEANT TO SPEAK LIFE BUT DEEP DOWN I FEEL DEAD

AND MY SPEECH BROUGHT FORTH CONDEMNATION

AND IN THE PROCESS I LOST IT ALL TO THE BIG SCREEN WITHOUT

PAYING ATTENTION TO WHAT WAS GOING ON BEHIND THE SCENES

I WAS CARRIED AWAY BY THE CAMERA, FLASHLIGHT, SPOTLIGHT

THE ATTENTION, FINALLY ALL I EVER DREAMED OF

IS RIGHT HERE BEFORE ME, OR AM I DREAMING?

I DIDN’T KNOW IT WAS A TRAP…

 

A LITTLE MORE AND I AM STILL HERE

LEARNING FROM THE MISTAKES MY ANCESTORS MADE

THE ONLY WAY WOULD BE TO RETRACE MY STEPS 10 FEETS BACK

OR MORE

BEGINNING FROM WHERE IT ALL STARTED

MY MIND

YOU SEE I ALLOWED MY MIND BELIEVE IT COULD BE ANYTHING IT

WANTED TO BE

I ALLOWED MY MIND TEACH MY BODY HOW TO LIVE

I GAVE IT POWER TO CONTROL MY LIFE

AND IT OBEYED ME

I PUSHED IT TOO FAR

A LITTLE MORE AND YOU WILL BE JUST PERFECT

MY CREATION! WHAT A DELIGHT!

BEFORE I COULD COUNT 1, 2, 3… & SNAP

IT TURNED AGAINST ME

IT CONTROLLED AND DEPRIVED ME OF MY ABILITIES

 

A LITTLE MORE YOU REMEMBER, IT SAID

AND YOUR LIFE IS MINE

YOU WILL DO MY BIDDING TILL THE VERY END

YOU HAD THE POWER TO CONTROL ME

BUT INSTEAD YOUR CHOSE TO EXPLOIT ME

AND YOU CARELESSLY LET ME LOOSE

SAYING IT’S JUST AN IMAGINATION

I ALLOWED MY MIND TO FLY

BUT I DIDN’T TELL IT WHERE TO FLY TO

 

A LITTLE MORE AND I AM STILL LOCKED

COUNTING THE HOUR, MINUTE, AND SECOND

WHEN IT WILL ALL END

TILL THEN THERE WILL BE NO MORE!!!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

King of My Heart!!! 

…Over again I give you my heart

Over again I give you my soul…

Over again and over again I belong to you…

How many times do we actually sing this song without having anything else in mind.

Who has the center space of your heart? This was what clouded my mind last night and it really made me so restless.

Who have you placed as the guard in your heart?

Everytime I stumble on this song I feel this sweet sensation, I feel like just putting an end to my life pursuits and just whisk myself up to a convent or somewhere at the depth of the world. 

I remember when growing up I had wanted to be a nun. At 9years old I would read the bible from Genesis down to Revelation, I had a heart for the things of God and nothing could quench that.

I remember when I just gave my life to Christ, I was just a baby then and everything seemed to be covered in crystal glasses. There was this time I had my quiet time with God and I felt the fire like never before, I was in tears and declaring my love for God and after it was all over I said to myself…

Judith you are going to the convent this very minute so just pack your bags and off we go, but I had it all wrong at that point and that is what happens to us, we allow our emotions cloud our judgement and we make so many promises to God only for us to go back the same way we came.

At a time in my life I hated everything about living in this part of this world or any part as the case maybe and every night before I go to bed I would pray to God asking Him to take me away into His loving arms. The simple truth was I wanted to die, how? Well I don’t know but I was one crazy little child at least that was what I told myself.

No I didn’t murder anyone neither did I commit any grievous sin that overwhelmed me, on the contrary I justed wanted it to all go away.

So am I in the convent now? No

Am a nun? No

Do I still want to be a nun? No

You might wonder how all this long story about my childhood connects to the title above.

Jesus was at the center of my heart and nothing mattered not until life happened and the crystal glasses I lived in shattered to pieces… I took a trip to wonderland and I couldn’t find my way back.

Gradually but slowly Jesus Christ who was at the center of my life was given a quit notice, somehow He ended up in the basement. 

Isn’t that were we all keep Jesus? At the very bottom of our lives were he doesn’t have to make any decisions for us. So many times he wants to direct our paths but we take it all for granted, well I did. We claim we know it all.

But do we really know it all?

We are all grown up now so we don’t need anyone controlling us. We can make decisions ourselves without any advisory body on our neck. 

I didn’t understand what it was like to be born again.

Being a born again is not something you feel… rather it is a call we have to decide to answer or ignore… It is a conscious and a deliberate move to want something you never had but you must decide with your “Five Senses”

As we grew older certain things of life starts to take the place of God in our life, thoughts like: I need a boyfriend or a girlfriend… I need a new car and we are constantly thinking about these things without having regard for God who made it all.

What is the last thing you thing about when you are in bed?

Fixing up our eyes on God and neglecting all that doesn’t go according to God’s plan for you.

This song titled “King of My Heart” by John Mark & Sarah McMillan best summaries all that is in my heart.

Toady let us make the “Conscious” decision to bring Jesus back to the center of our lives but this time around as the King of our hearts, as the one making the decisions in all we do, whether it favours us or not.

He is knocking at the door of your heart this minute. Will you open? Will you give him the honour he deserves? Will you open up only for you to push him out again? 

Cut off from me and you can do nothing (Let me correct something here for a minute… What Jesus meant by this was not that you can’t acquire material possessions or that you can’t be successful in life but he is talking about the Spiritual aspects of our lives which basically controls the physical, so if you are not in Him you can’t possess the Spiritual gifts he promised, imagine a life void of God’s gift, it is empty on the inside but full on the outside, an example would be Nicodemus who was visibly rich but spiritually poor, something was missing, and he needed more so he renounced himself which is the only way to God)

For you are the branch and He is the vine who supplies your needs and causes you to bear fruit..

The connection between a branch and a vine is one of intimacy in a situation whereby the other party depends solely on the other for life, it is a close knit one and without the support of the vine, the branch becomes useless,  just like a child who still in his mother’s womb depends on her, everything revolves round his mother’s womb were he feels protected, nurtured, provided for and above all loved.  

That my friends is what our relationship with God should be like. Decide today who will have your heart…

I leave you with the words of John Mark and Sarah’s song titled… “King of my Heart”

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Let the King of my heart

be the mountain where I run

The Fountain I drink from

Oh He is my Song

Let the King of my heart

be the shadow where I hide

the randsom for my life

Oh He is my Song

You are good

good

ohhh

You are good

good

ohhh

You are good

good

ohhh

You are good

good

ohhh

Let the King of my heart

be the wind inside my sails

The anchor in the waves

Oh He is my Song

Let the King of my heart

be the fire inside my veins

the echo of my days

Oh He is my Song

“You’re never gonna let me down—

Empathy!!!

Empathy 

It’s a strange emotion 

A variation of love

It’s something we all feel at some point in our lives

The antithesis of apathy

Take a moment to ask yourself these simple questions? 
What do you do when you see a child begging on the street? 

Or an old man or anyone at all? 

Do you feel sorry they are in that predicament? 

Do you feel happy it isn’t you? 

Or do you feel nothing at all? 

Do you stretch out an empty hand?

Or one to help?  

There are varying levels to wealth. 

Not everyone lives in the same level of luxury.

Do what you can with what you have. 

Empathy separates us from base animals. 

Overrides our primal instinct for self preservation and instead enables us to care for others. 

To want them to do and be better. 

Jesus loves us unconditionally. 

Let us be Christ-like and ensure we treat everyone like they deserve love and life. 

Live long and prosper. 

Andrew Dayne Walter.

Let Not Your Heart Be Troubled! Pt 2

Hello Lovelies, how are we doing today? I am so sorry I couldn’t publish the second part of this post, my sincere apologies guys. We have been having serious light issues for a while now, hopefully things will be better soon.

Let’s continue from where we stopped, can we? Its a yes!

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Is God in control of your finances?

Is God powerful, wise and good?
Do you believe that in everything that happens in your life, God is working for your good?

Can you trust Him?

Did you answer yes to the above questions? 

You need to search deep in your heart to know whom you belong to because when we allow ourselves to be worried we focus more on the problem than the solution which at the end leaves us drained.

God is the solution to every problem you are facing right now, for He is the way, the truth and life to whoever calls to him. 

He is the answer to your questions.

The Lord says, I will condemn those who turn away from me and put their trust in human beings, in the strength of mortals…. But I will bless the person who puts his trust in me. He is like a tree growing near a stream and sending out roots to the water. It is not afraid when hot weather comes, because its leaves stay green; it has no worries when there is no rain; it keeps on bearing fruit…. Jeremiah 17:5-8

This passage gives me so much life and strength…

Who has your trust? Don’t you think need a rethink?

Do not neglect the good things life has to offer by clouding your mind on negativity and bad judgment, it kills faster than a gun. 

It is okay if we are concerned because then we are creative and look for a way forward.

Jesus was never worried or troubled about anything, in every argument and difficulty he approached with humility and gentleness, he would rather profer a solution than dwell on an issue..

I mean did you notice the way Jesus always attacked the Pharisees and Sadducess with just the right word to keep them shut and ashamed, I am so sure most of them almost peed on themselves when Jesus spoke. He was never met unguarded or scared but rather he knew whose father he belonged to and he stood on that basic fact.

Today do something different than you have being doing before, when you keep trying a method and it doesn’t work out try another means till you get what you want.

  • Approach issues of life with humility & gentleness..

When the issue of food was mentioned to Jesus he was concerned about how hungry the crowd were and that did not stress him up a bit. A natural man would have to do plus and minus and division and probably end up solving nothing, for some people the mere thought of it alone could choke them to death but not Jesus who know his source and all he needed to do was to connect to that source with faith, believing it will come to pass just as it was written in the scriptures. 

Jesus didn’t need to call for any collection or seed sowing to feed the hungry crowd rather he made do with the little that was available…

That was all Jesus needed to solve the problem, case closed and we all know what happened at the end.

Are you still waiting for that big break or that big check or huge sum of money someone promised you before you can do something?

Think again..

It is amazing how we all fold our arms in search of something within our reach without having to go through long lengths to get it. There are so many opportunities around us laying dormat but we choose to neglect them in place  for the already made goods.

Let Not Your Heart Be Troubled!!!

If only you believe you will receive, this is mathematics neither is it physics, it is just what it is.

It is time to leave that bed you have buried yourself in for months and see the light starring right in front of your mirror, take a cool bath, wear your best dress, turn up the music so loud and sing and dance to the glory of God till your feets crack and if it doesn’t crack you are not there yet.

Paul and Silas praised and danced to God even when bound in chains and locked up in a dungeon, until God did something about their situation they were ready to offer praise to God for days non stop, they could have just laid there crying and cursing and complaining but they wouldn’t give the devil the chance to see their tears so they sprang into action and caused God to act on their behalf. They took a step of faith that resulted to their miraculous release, they weren’t sure if God would answer them but its either this or that and they chose the other.

Radical praise gives birth to radical results. 

Do you doubt me? then ask David who stripped naked giving praise to God.

My God is able to do abundantly more than we can ever ask or think about if you could let go of your troubles and do that which he requires from you.

Let the Joy of the Lord be your strength?

Its a rap guys, I hope you were blessed because I really am and I can’t wait to get home and dance for my daddy…

Thought to ponder on… 

Are you leading yourself or is God leading?

Love From Judith

Let Not Your Heart Be Troubled. Pt 1


Hello Lovelies, how are we today? Great right?

Yesterday I got back from work only for me to go to my mom’s room and I found her crying, I was so angry and I felt so bad, words failed me as I couldn’t even utter a word to console her. 

Lots of things has gone wrong in the past and things aren’t right in the moment. I wanted to just go to my room and start crying after seeing my mom in such a helpless state. I wanted to just scream at God maybe He would listen to us and make it all stop but I just smiled and walked away, singing praises to God.

I refused to give in to my emotions and the situation of things going on in the world because doing that will only bring glory to the devil when all the glory belongs to God.  

John 14:1

Do not be worried and upset,” Jesus told them. “Believe in God and believe also in me.

Saying this words might mean nothing to you when all you are faced with is more than enough to just give up.

You say, Why shouldn’t I be troubled Judith?

The price of things in the market could drive you crazy..

My house rent has not being paid and I just lost my job..

The kids has to go to school and we barely have more than enough to eat..

The bills are piling up and their seem to be no way out…

So ask me that question again and get a scornful look from me!

Can any one of you live a bit longer by worrying about it? Matthew 6:27 (Please answer yes or no)

Does your present predicament change a bit when we allow our mind to be carried away by the lack of what we don’t have now?

Does your constant worry about the country make things any better or worse?

Believe in God & Believe also in me

I am telling you the truth: those who believe in me will do what I do-yes, they will do even greater things…

 This word is for people of faith, no need to mince words and tell you the appropriate way to achieve this, for there is only one way to the Father and its through his Son Jesus Christ and the same goes for God’s promise to you. It only takes a step of faith to realise what Jesus meant when he said those words.

I don’t know about you but I have more than enough because I know whose child I am, I know whom I belong to and He assures me of providing for my needs, not tomorrow or next week but now. 

God is my Daddy who has given me more than enough to last for a lifetime, whether I can see it now or not, I claim it in faith. 

So……Who is your daddy?

What worry does to you:

  • It keeps you incarcerated. 
  • Your constant worry makes God incapable of suppling your needs according to His riches in glory (God lives and dines in faith).
  • You deny yourself the privileges of life.
  • It makes you grow weak and helpless spiritually.
  • You wallow in pity and negativity.
  • You give the devil the opportunity to plant seeds of doubt in your mind.
  • You grow old quickly (I had to let my mom know about this one)
  • It controls you into doing things you are not supposed to do as a Child of God.

I could go on and on and on and on but I will stop here for now.

Instead of allowing your worry control you, you need to take control of it and start fighting back.

Ephesians 3:20 “To him who by means of his power working in us is able to do so much more than we can ever ask for, or even think of.”

Amen…

 Don’t try to take the place of God because it brings Him so much pleasure to provide for you and bless the works of your hands.

So do not start worrying: “Where will my food come from? Or my drink for your Father in heaven knows you need all these things!

There are so many when and how going around… 

When will I get married?

How can I find a job?

When will my breakthrough finally come? Hmmmmm

Remember the words of Jesus in Matthew 11:29

Learn from me for I am humble and gentle in Spirit!

Don’t give up on God and on yourself no matter how difficult things are with you.

What you should be doing is to speak the word of God at all times. When you are in the kitchen, at your work place, in school, on and the road and even in the toilet. Strengthen yourself in God’s word and let the devil know better.

  • My Father has given me all things.
  • I can do all things through Christ that strengthens me.
  • I have all that I need today, tomorrow and forever because my Daddy is supplying all of my needs according to His riches in glory.
  • God will perfect all that concerns me.
  • For God’s plans for me and my family are of God and not of evil.
  • My Daddy cares too much for me….

These should be the words you should be declaring when the devil trys to make you feel bitter about how your life is.

So Judith what you are saying I should not worry at all?

It is only natural for we as human beings to be worried and confused when life hits us hard, but remember you are in the world but you do not belong to this world. You belong to a Spiritual Father who sees in secret and in the open so you are not just “Natural” you carry God’s dna inside of you and possess fire so don’t use that as an excuse to be in the state you are and start acting out who you are in Christ.

“For when others say there is a casting down I shall declare that there is a lifting up.”

I will have to stop here today guys and hopefully continue tomorrow…

Let’s sleep this night bearing in mind that God will never let us down when in all sincerity we put our trust in Him.

Thanks alot for reading this post. 

Please guys I would love to hear from you… Let’s get the word out.

Love From Judith 

A New Beginning! 

Hello Lovelies! Long time no post right? Its so good to be back after a long while which wasn’t intentional trust me.

So what’s being happening since my absence, I feel I have to catch up on alot of things that I missed while I was away. Ever since I lost my phone I have being receiving so many threat calls from my dearest friend Gold to post something lol (He keeps pushing me to be the best I can be, thanks alot dear, you have no idea how much those calls meant to me)… I mean its that crazy. But I just didn’t want to disappear again so I had to just trust God for a phone or a laptop…

Being away has really given me the opportunity to think and evaluate on the visions I have on this blog and so many other projects birthed inside of me. God has really opened my eyes to see things beyond my thinking… 

“The waiting period” (A post on it coming up soon) wasn’t easy for me as the inpatient type but it was very important for me to just sit and learn without any form of distraction.

I have had to go back in time and source out the reason behind D’EveInMe. Doing this made it easier for me to be on the right path towards what God has called me for and as long as I breath I do not want to deviate from the truth or be carried away…

N.B: It’s very important as a blogger to take time out to evaluate the progress on your blog.. You can decide to take time out from blogging and just breath especially when things are overwhelming for you but make sure your readers knows before hand.

D’EveInMe is a journey of grace, mistakes, imperfection,self discovery and self love to those in need of it. A light to make clear the things of God. 

Mistakes are made

Lessons are learnt

Healing begins 

But we still stand tall and are eager to reach the finish line. 

D’EveInMe connects to people struggling and striving  just like me to live a life of emulation, a life that can be described to the one Christ Jesus lived on earth. 

Learning from past mistakes and building up a solid faith in God…. Its not a journey made by just me alone but together we partake in the temptations and persecutions we face daily to attain the promise made by God and together we partake in the victory..

At the time I started this blog I had no idea what to except, I just needed a place were I could pour out my heart and mind to whoever cares to listen.. I was so confused and I started doubting myself but then God found me worthy and took me by the hand as a sign of acceptance.. He opened my heart to gush out what He put their and He assured me of His undieing support and love even when I keep reminding Him that I don’t deserve it. 

D’EveInMe what I would like to call an “Incubator” where we are nurtured by the renewal of our mind and by the words of our mouth.

I have learnt alot from so many beautiful and handsome people here on wordpress and I am so amazed at how our paths crossed and how your words makes me feel so loved, its more than I ever imagined… (I am such a cry baby)

It’s a new beginning for me guys filled with hope and purpose. Thanks alot for your prayers and concern when I was away in wonderland. Thanks to D’Dreams for checking up on me and Berni my new found love for being there always and to everyone who reads my blog both the ghost readers, I see you guys…

 To my sister, Sochima Milicent Asoegwu yes I had write it out in full hmmmm I am so speechless…  

I Love You So Much and you drive me crazy…

To my crazy adopted brothers Dayne, Jeff, and Pascal you guys are the best and I am so grateful to God for bringing you troublemakers into my life lol.. I really appreciate you all for believing so much in me.. 

God bless you all…

Have a good night rest… 

A Sister’s Love

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Good morning lovelies. How was your night? Hope you all have a beautiful night rest.

My sister’s birthday was on September 24 and I wrote a poem for her but I couldn’t post it because I didn’t have a phone. So here is to my sister who means so much to me.

And words can’t describe how much I love and cherish her. 

This post is dedicated to her.

I find it very hard to express my feelings for someone very special to me but this has to be done.

Sochima  Millicent Asoegwu 

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Years has passed!

Memories shared!

We Laughed!

We Cried!

We Prayed!

We Danced!

We Sang!

We Quarreled!

But at the end Love Conquered!

Life makes so much meaning with you.

Your strength is greater than that of 10,000 men together!

Your heart is like a temple that I love to reside in.

Your heart is Pure and Chaste!

I wish I could give you everything you ever wanted amd more than anything I want in this world is your Happiness!

I wish I could wipes away your tears and sooth your pain.

You are an unshakeable Warrior!

A Fighter!

All this put together makes you Immaculate!

Full of Grace!

Woman of Peace!

Full of Courage!

You quiet my soul  with your powerful words.

Only you have the power to unlock the Woman in me.

The tears  in my eyes shows the very depth of my undieing love for you.

If I was to come back to this world,  you will still  be my beloved sister but with a little twist because I will be the eldest and you will be my little sister so that I could hold you so tight in my arms and never let go.

I will kiss you as you go to bed.

I will sing and dance for you.

I will pray tirelessly for you to grow up to have the fear of God in you.

I will shower you with so much love and affection.

I will always be there for you, holding your hands and never letting go.

I will protect and defend you.

Today I celebrate you.

Thank you for being a friend

A counselor

A mediator 

All in one..

You really are a total package

And your smile is so contagious it takes my breath away and I am so proud of the woman you are turning out to be. A woman sold out to Christ and reaching out to the voiceless.

  • You carry so much power in you and at times I am often envious and just wish I could be you for a day.

God used you to restore peace to me and I am grateful you are a big part of my journey.

Happy Birthday to you…

Wishing you Long  Life  and. Prosperity…

May God shine His light so bright on you… 

For God is restoring back all the years you spent in tears..

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I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!!

From a sister who cares.

Something Interesting Happened!

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Hellllllllllllllllllllllooooooooooooooooooooooo Lovelies! Long time no post. It really has been a while since I came here. If you read till the end of this post you will realize that this was’nt my doing at all. Infact I am innocent of every allegation.

Anyhoo I really miss it here, it seems like eternity but then things happen for a reason and this is one of them. Story Story! Once upon a time…

So the reason why it seemed like I stopped blogging is because I was robbed of my phone in my hostel. Really felt bad about it but then what will be will be. So I am basically phoneless but soon and very soon I should be getting one soon.

Just wanted to pop in and say hiiiiiiiiiiii to everyone.. So in a few days from now I will be marking my 6 months blog Anniversary. All to the glory of God.

I really cant stop thanking you all for your tremendous support in this past months. A lot still has to be done but it only takes time and patience.

Till my next post do have a great day and a blessed month.

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You Must Bring Yourself Into Worship!

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Hello lovelies how are you doing today. Am fine thank you for asking so today I am happy to share something with you that has opened my eyes to see things in a different light and I pray that God will bring all things to your remembrance…

I heard this and wondered what it means for someone to bring himself or herself into worship.

God is calling us into the art of worship
He wants us to bring it all in worship
Where God reveals his glory to us
Where chains are broken
Where our purpose is revealed
Where the scar is washed away
And we are certain that we will make it through to the end
We need to realise that what we should be doing is more of worship than complaining or murmuring

If your bills haven’t being paid yet… Worship
If you just lost your job… Worship
If you just received a horrible report from your doctor… Worship
If you just had a terrible breakup… Worship

For it is only when you bear it all to God in worship can you be confident of a breakthrough.

Fixing your eyes on him and him only.

It could be very tempting to run for help to people who truly do not want your good.
It seems easier to run to your uncle who clearly does not care about you or your family.
What can you do?
You have to pay your school fees
You need to eat
You need to pay the house rent and the bills are pilling up…
So there seems to be no other way left than for you to go somewhere else where God is not present

I realise that when I truly worship God I see my future, I see things, I say things that are beyond human understanding
God calls us into the realm of worship so we could know him better… Not with what is written in the scriptures because I believe there is more to God than what is written in the Bible.
I read recently in the Bible where God said no one understands his thoughts.

Don’t you know? Haven’t you heard? The Lord is the everlasting God; he created all the world. He never grows tired or weary. No one understands his thoughts.
Isaiah 40:28

I was so dumbfounded when I stumbled upon that very scripture.
I had to really think deep about what the scriptures was saying…

Just like no one could understand me sometimes, no one can understand God. No one understands why he does what he does. No one understands why he lets evil things happen. No one understands why he lets good people die and evil people live.
Recently I heard in the news of a 4 year old girl who crossed to the other side of her street to joyfully greet her grandparents when she was knocked down by a car… She didn’t make it alive.
No one understands why God would allow such a thing happen, he could have prevented it from happening but he didn’t.

The thing is He is an unquestionable God, who does whatever he wants to do for a reason… So instead of whining and questioning God we need to get down on our knees with our head lifted up to him and worship…
God wants to settle a lot of things in our marital life, in our financial life and our relationships but we can only do that when we worship.
He wants us to understand him.
How do you feel when no body understands you?
I feel so empty and broken.
We have access to God through Jesus Christ. We are certain that he might not be there right on time but he his never late. He has it all figured out not according to our plans but then we must be willing to trust and depend on him for all that we need.

Worship is not just an art, it is not mathematics that if you have the formula you can arrive at the answer… Worship goes beyond statistics and beyond singing and dancing…
It is a thing of the Spirit and that’s it. It is a spiritual thing and you need to be transparent…
You see the reason why God is calling us to worship is because he wants to see our transparency, he wants to see that place where it hurts and he wants to mend it.

He has healed my diseases and bound up my wounds
Psalm 147:3

He wants to take you to a place where you would be at peace and you won’t get that if you are all covered up..

Total Surrender to God is what worship is.

I watched a movie yesterday “The Legend of Tarzan.” And a part in the movie caught my attention..
To survive death in the jungle you must show your weakest part to the Gorilla by kneeling down with your two hands lifted up and with so much sorrow and weakness. Only then would they let you be.

That act alone shows surrender. It simple says here I am Lord, naked and unashamed, tired, weary, desperate, weak, and hopeless, you are saying to God take me by my hand, I can’t do this without you for its you that I see and I in your love do I breathe… At this point you are gaining his attention…
And that was exactly what Jesus went through on the cross of Calvary…
He exposed all that was hidden in the open and brought it to light and by doing that he shamed the devil.

Jesus Christ in all his messages made one thing clear, he was saying so many things but he only meant one thing..
He seemed to be everywhere but in the real sense of it all he was in one place.
Every miracle, every message, every act of kindness leads to one thing and it’s       “TRANSPARENCY” that was Jesus only message to the whole world.

We don’t get what we want most times because we come covering up a lot of things, we come hiding things and trying to sound like the victim. We come with doubt. God wants us to lay down that baggage. He wants us to bear it all out. No need to cover anything up.
And that is why he says he does not see things as the world sees.

In your weakest moment is where God reveals himself…

So don’t be scared to tell him exactly how you feel. Don’t be frightened that you will be condemned because you lied or fornicated.

There is no condemnation now for those who live in union with Christ Jesus. For the law of the Spirit, which brings us life in union with Christ Jesus, has set me free from the law of sin and death.
Romans 8:1-2

God knows that it is very hard for us to show people how weak we are, we are all so powerful and confident on the outside but out heart is scared and void. We don’t want anyone to see our soft spot because we think we might be taken for granted, we dress it up to look pretty on the outside but that doesn’t work. Do you know hard it is to see a man break down in tears? That sight is heartbreaking but Jesus did all that so he could send across a message…

BE TRANSPARENT!!!

This week has been mind blowing. God showed himself evident in my life and words can not describe how much things he revealed to me.
He is always watching over you, so be rest assured that he will welcome you with open arms. You will feel love like never before. At that point nothing matters anymore, you are finding yourself in God wrapped in the splendour of his might.
No need to conceal the truth because Christ has concealed your sins by dieing on the Cross for you.
He did it to create a place of worship, a place of total surrender to God, a place of acceptance and repentance…

That is where God dwells…

I am currently reading No More Sheets by Dr. Juanita Bynum and I am just so speechless…

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I never intended to write anything today but like I always say. As the Spirit leads. I don’t know who he wants to reach out to but whoever it is… God has something for you, don’t miss it.

So my exams is almost over, I have one paper left which I will be writing next week, so there is enough time to play a little and we call it a wrap.

Do have a great Saturday. God bless you..

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